It's quite surreal for me. It has been almost a year, and I have been building my guards up. Sometimes I sneaked out to see who's around, but I often sat quietly behind the guards I made. Whenever I opened it, they left. So I stayed. Quietly.
Until one day, I stopped being denial.
Of all these people, my heart has been attracted to that guy. The guy who I was only admired before, didn't know the feeling was growing, didn't realize that my eyes had always been looking for him.
The same guy who I adore the humor taste, the very humble personality he has, the same guy who I took pictures together with on June, the same guy who I had high five with when he finished performing, or playing games, or even when we pass each other by.
I adore him, I was probably only his fans, I called myself like that.
Admired him before I even knew his name, often attracted by his good-looking face, and when we knew each other, and knew how kind he was, there were no doubt I became even more attracted to him.
It's just my feeling that keeps on growing. Each day I adore him, whenever I greet him, and have a little talk with him. Nah, I still called myself a fan of him, until one day I felt a dropping-heart feeling when someone called his name.
At that time, I realized that I like him.
I like him.
Of all these people around my campus,
Of all these people around me,
I have this special feeling towards someone, who has no idea about what kind of feeling I actually have to him.
Well, the guard is slowly down. It's scary, really.
It's scary because I am letting my guards down for someone, who's way too kind and has no idea about what I feel to him.
Of all these people.