Anyer - Carita Beach

A month ago, I was kidnapped by my mother to join her office's trip to Carita beach.  Carita beach is located in Banten, about 3 hours from Jakarta.  It was a popular spot in 1980s, but nowadays, people rarely come to Carita because it's pretty much far.  To reach the place, you will pass industry areas - which is super hot, and dry.  It made me felt like I was somewhere in Middle East.

Although the road was quite long, I was pretty much satisfied with the beach.  Well, that's probably the last time I went to beach was at 4th grader in elementary school.  Carita beach was my first ever beach that I visited after some years, literally.

The trip was full with families.  You know, those kind of family gathering event that was held by the office.  So many parents, kids, even babies.  Not a kid-lover kind of person, but I managed myself to take care a 4 years old girl to walk along the beach with me.  Yes, I was surprised too.

I've never been to Bali, Lombok, or even Seribu Island, so there's no great beach criteria in my mind.  The cottage I was staying had the beach as its back yard.  Since it wasn't a public beach, it was pretty clean, and beautiful.  Except there are some trash near the porch of the cottage, but the beach itself was pretty satisfying.

Hearing the wave from the sea, felt the sand with my bare feet, let the salty water tickled my skin.  I was pretty much fresh minded, but now I think I need another beach to refresh my mind.

Or mountain is okay.

Short, I need nature to ease my mind.


Daily Anxiety Thoughts

1. Train at the Jakarta has a special place in my heart.
2.  Taken by him during the road, and the pearl earrings are gone now. Sad.
3.  Cute cat I met at Wale (Bandung).  He was so big, and adorable, couldn't help it.

You know, sometimes, at the strange phase of your life, you will start to wish that you can live forever young -- just because life scares the hell out of you.

Well, I have been off from this blog for almost 3 months.  It's not like I have got nothing to share -- for heaven's sake, I had gone so many things during my summer.  Joining AFS' National Orientation was probably one of the greatest time I had, it made me busy, plus new knowledge and people.  Which I really love the most.
But everything has a risk, and nowadays, I kinda feel like I am losing my best friends because of my messy-busy-schedules.
You know, growing pains.  You are starting to step into your mid 20s, and suddenly reality slaps you.  It's like you start noticing things you have been ignored, and becoming more sensitive.

Anxiety is something that everyone has.  I read once on my Abnormal Psychology text book that anxiety actually has a good effect; it makes you prepare for the future.  Now, that explains why some people are anxious about their future - you're one of them, I suppose.

I, myself, am anxious with everything that's happening around me right now.  Let's face the truth, I have just turned 21 (on July), and it's my 3rd year in the college.  I've noticed that my friends are mostly ambitious - they know what they really want.  Their stabilized GPA allows them to joining some practical study for a month (what we call as KKN).  My GPA has dropped because of one C I had last semester, and it made me unable to take the practical study.

It always sucks to be in the minority, doesn't it?

Plus, the anxiety leads me into self-blaming, "Why can't you be ambitious, just like some of your friends?" ; everyone knows that college is so hunger-games when it comes to grades, and this is not something pretty, or dramatically beautiful.  You know, it's like you have to sacrifice someone in order to keep you good.  Bloody.

By the time you're in your 20s, you're starting to evaluate what have you accomplished these days.  Remember when you were a kid, and parents asked you, "What are you gonna be in the future?".  Now, you will start to ask the same question to yourself, except that the future is just like.. 2 or 3 years ahead.

I'm starting to do things I have been wanted to do.  My current project is taking picture of my outfit - in order to achieve my personal ambition for fashion blog; reading news everyday; and to listen more carefully.  Last week I read the The Teen Vogue Handbook and I'm considering to take an internship at the magazines, or fashion retail during my holiday in December to February (personally, I plan to do it because I'm pretty sad for unable to take KKN this semester).

Well, 21 and the 3rd year of college has been so tiring and it keeps leaving me panda eyes, pale face, but I guess, something good worth writing will be there on this blog.

So have a great day people, please don't let yourself lost.


Sophomore Year : Finished.

I survived my sophomore year!!

Aye!  Today is my last day of finals - and I am officially finished my sophomore year.  How should I put it in words?  Relieved, and glad, probably the right words for expressing my feeling.
Sophomore year in Faculty of Psychology, University of Padjadjaran was somehow life-challenging.  I had some subjects with different methods of learning:

  • Eksperimen Lanjutan - was the highlight of this 4th semester.  We had to make two experiments.  My group was looking for the correlation between time perspective with music genres, and the effect of branding to the intention of purchasing.  It was pretty fun, and tiring at the same time.  We had to write papers about it (theories, methods of experiment, etc.), gathered the experiment data, and so on.  Fortunately my group friends were very cooperative, and they just suited the flow we were working with.
  • Psychology of Management - was the most depressing subject in this 4th semester.  Actually, the method of learning was fun - all of the Psychology of Industry and Organizations are rock (the real definition of young at heart).  The midterm test was a hell, and it was just so hard to comprehend.  But, I am relieved that the final was not as bad as the midterm, plus the final project was pretty fun tho (making a short movie about Jatinangor).  Hopefully I get a good grade for this one (at least, C - I won't complain) !
  • Introduction to Psychodiagnostic - Personally, I like this subject because we have to wear formal clothes (a bit irrelevant, I know).  We learn about giving instruction for psychological test, and learn a bit of the interpretation of the tests. Fun, I know.
  • Forensic Psychology  - Probably one of my dream subject came true - but not as fun as I expected.  The learning method was a bit boring, presentation by students (this is not effective, fyi), but the fun part was we visited local prison and did some interview.  It was a lifetime experience.
Through all of the ups and downs of my sophomore year, I did learn a lot of new things for my life.  I am really grateful for having good friends around me, the far ones are still in contact, but the mere presence of the near ones are indeed needed.  Also, have I told you that I am part-time working as a waiter (and barista occasionally) at the local coffee shop in Jatinangor?  Through part-time I learn how to manage my priority (which I am still suck at it), and use my time wiser (which I am still trying to).  The partners and boss(es) are fun, friendly, and they know I am working to learn.  Seriously one of the best part of my sophomore year.

So it's officially holiday, I am planning to make some journals, and bake!  Plus, I have joined the AFS National Orientation committee, surely this is gonna fun (because I am gonna meet new people).

And... You know how much I love making lists, right?  So here is my June's current addiction lists:

Current earcandies :
My recommendation is Brika.  Her songs are just so catchy, and addictive.

DMT - xxyyxx

Expectations - Brika

Mumbai - Brika

 Left Alone (ft. Chet Faker) - Flume

Current Eyecandies :
Zoe Suen.  A fashion blogger from Hong Kong, and sometimes based in London.  Her trademark is the casual (yet reaaaaaaally stylish) style.  The blog is really simple, with the beautiful photographs (mostly taken by her father).  Here's to her blog, and here's to the interview from The Raw Book.
Oh, and she makes playlist on her Soundcloud, and video blogs too! (I really lover her Tokyo Video Blog).

 Current Addiction :
  • Cooking using rice cooker - I made Macaroni and Cheese, Instant Macaroni Soup, Mashed Potato using rice cooker!  As a college student, it's an achievement!  Will make a step by step post later :)
  • Saving subtitles screenshots
  • Doing nothing
Ahnyways, happy fasting for those who are celebrating Ramadhan!  And happy holiday!


{Pause From the Routine}

//Currently craving for another sweet-avoidance-escape//

June.  Finals, deadlines for papers, anything that can make my hair keeps falling off - which makes me depressed every time I sweep the floor.  The sense of holiday is too strong, and I, myself, can not wait to have my new activity (this holiday's : AFS' re-orientation & orientation).
At this moment, I kinda question myself about what am I actually wanna do, or to be soon.  I even question my own capability and ability(ies) in so many things.  I wish I could do that, I wish I had time to do that, I want to learn it, etc.  Those thoughts keep distracting me from the fact that I have so many theories to memorize, words to arrange for my Forensic Psychology paper, and so on.

Museums, Bosscha, mountain, sea, home, anywhere I want to be away from these college routine.

I know, I am complaining in this post but seriously, I need my holiday already.
Well, I already do since the second week of this fourth semester.
Good luck for finals, people.
And have a great holiday,


Over-sized Sweater / Sunset

It was a lovely Saturday afternoon, I was doing my Management task with friends.  Surprisingly, we have this beautiful spot in Jatinangor.  The sunset was the prettiest thing, the sand, the road.  It was such an unusual way to spend your weekend.

I was wearing Afif's sweater, because it was very comfy, over-sized, matched with sneakers & leggings -- definitely my favorite kind of outfit.  He was kind enough to let me wear his sweater for some days, I even asked him to give it for me! Lol, no.  But the pictures were good, and I kinda love the sweater (and pictures) so I thought it was worth to post.

Currently re-thinking about my fashion blog plan,
Should I start establishing it?

What I Wore:

Sweater : Afif's (ask him where he bought it!)
Leggings : Unbranded
Sneakers: Convers
Tote Bag : From Holland

Pictures were taken by Juliastika P.
Edited by Me.