I am not sure if our mind has its own morphine. We know there are nightmares, heartbreaks, and wounds inside of us, but somehow we can't feel it. We're numb, all of sudden. It feels like our brain is tranquilized, so we can't think to feel it.
It feels so good, sometimes. So good because suddenly, you're unable to feel hurt. You just feel nothing. When you have to smile, you smile. But when something goes wrong, you just don't react the way you should.
But at some point, it feels like being a mummy. A dead-man walking. Empty soul walking.
I am not sure if I am the only one who feels this, or some people have gone this stage. It just feels weird. Living as 65% robot, and 35% human. Or sometimes, 65% human, and 35% robot.
The combination doesn't match, and it keeps making me thinking, "Am I living in a wrong way? Am I on the wrong path?"
I know how I wanted to feel numb back then,
And now it happens and I just have no idea.
It feels like I'm lost inside my own question about the natural-morphine we (probably) have inside ourselves.
Do we (have it)?